Awkward night now that my mother is aware of the fact that i’m no longer the innocent baby she thought I was… proceeding to ask me details because she is terrified of me being pregnant… then giving me “the talk”, like I wasn’t supposed to know what a penis is and what sex is and that having sex can infact… get me pregnant.
That, and my boyfriend is making it worse by going silent on me for no reason even though I totally spent the last 5 fucking nights at his house and HE was the one complaining about “I’m going to have a hard time not having you around”
Also I am jobless, and have a whopping 170 dollar phone bill coming in, in about 2 weeks because my boyfriend convinced me to put the whole damn thing under my name and card… and I am poor what the hell am I supposed to do ugh…
Interview at a new job today… lord help me im so nervous.
I hate having anxiety because at the moment right now all I want to do is throw up. :(
I’m really fucking glad to see a big group of my buddies post about how they went out and had a good time tonight and I don’t even know… I wasn’t even like.. a thought to be invited??? I know I work a lot and probably wouldn’t have been able to go but if there’s already like 6 of you what could asking hurt? I’m so lonely anymore…
Whenever I hang out with people all it consists of is sitting around their house playing games or just chilling. I want to be included in stuff too. I’m so sick of this life of invisibility. I guess I’m just not the type of friend worthy of more than just sitting around and doing nothing.
Even though my own bestest friend on the face of the planet doesn’t really like my boyfriend…. I have to say I am very happy with my life at the moment. I like to call this real love, because there is no bull shit, there is no games, we are just real with each other and that has been what i’ve looked for all this time :’)